I miss Ipoh :)

Unconsciously I've came S'wak one month ad.
One month ago, I still at Ipoh.
Hmn.. wat am i doing tat time leh?
outing? Chit-chating? Eating some delicious meal?
I miss Ipoh honestly :)

感慨

最近新闻报道越来越多小孩被遇害.

说真的,听到了心莫名其妙有点酸.

一个天真无邪的脸蛋与笑容.

真的无法想象,竟然下得了手??

 她们还没有见识到外面的世界甚至还没开口说话,

就要向世界告别了.

最心疼的应该就是那个才2岁的小女孩吧.

剥夺她生存权利的竟是她母亲.

难道长得苦瓜脸就注定不好的了吗?

所以她就要被瘧待了吗? 

她的案件让我想起了他.

不过,还是感谢神.

若不是他的迷信,

妈妈的不信与独立的性格,

上帝的保守与看顾,

或许现在的我应该难以想象.

永远不知道下一秒会发生什么事情.

我只知道阿爸天父永远掌管和看顾与保守着我们每一个人,

无论多少个的'下一秒'.

你相信吗?

Thanks God for all HIS blessing :)

Time is never wait for someone.

Just a blink of eyes, form 6's life is end.

Exam is just left 2 paper.

What is going happen for next moment, no ones knows.

Honestly, I really worry about the result. :(

But, thanks LORD for giving me a special parents.

I really love you although sometimes we argue with one another.

Thanks God. :)

Every time when I'm sad or disappointed,

Thanks God, u r the one who come to encourages me with God's word and

ur experiences. 

Just like what they told me just now.

Life is short. No point to waste time for carry all the worries.

Life is short. We should enjoy every chapters in our life.

Think the positive ways no matter what situations we are.

Exam may just a proses in our life. Just enjoy.

God always have HIS plan and ways for us.

Amen :)

ONE HOPE

ONE LOVE 

ONE FAITH 

ONE GOD

GO 4 GOD :)

[z.u.z.z. @ grace]

矛盾的自己

试考结束了, 大概也知道自己的程度到那里.

如果告诉你没有压力是骗人的.

它离我的梦很远.

它离我的希望很远.

我害怕. 我想逃.

我不想面对它,

我不敢面对它.

最近我的脾气暴燥到不行.

连我自己也不认识自己,甚至厌恶到极点.

就是控制不了自己.

一点小事,脾气就来了.

脾气来,眼泪就来了.

一些莫名其妙的感觉也跟着来.

心跟思想在打架.

现在的我,不是我要的自己.

这不是我要的我.

这不是我要的性格.

可是我不能控制她.

有谁能告诉我到底怎么了?

我可以怎样?

好想把所有的东西都扔掉.

把自己藏到世界某一个安静的角落一段时间.

远离这个乱七八糟的生活.

我的生活一团糟.

我的生命一团糟.

什么东西都乱七八糟.

可是我还有好多东西还没做.

功课写不完!!!

书背不起来!!!

要点记不得!!!

我怎样考试!!!

妈妈以为我不喜欢她对我说的话而闹脾气.

天知道,对她的话我没意见. 

只是不懂 为什么我回答的语气很不好,

生气的不是你,应该是我自己.

我到底是谁?

其实房间是我最舒服的空间.

我喜欢呆在房间安静一个人.

我喜欢半夜因为是最安静的时间.

很多时候,我总觉得家很吵.

尤其是下午.

电视机声,责备声,唠叨声,对戏的意见,大呼小叫声等等.

我想出去,去比较一些比较安静的地方,

可是不懂去哪里,又想呆在房间.

矛盾.

Trial STPM

好久都没有更新部落格啦 :)

转眼间, trial STPM 到了.

 今天考了第一张, 就知道没有了8分. 唉 :(

我能达到我要的目标吗?

 九个月过后, 会有可能实现我的愿望吗?

 我可以吗? 我也在怀疑.

以爹地所说, 感恩与感谢神无论结果如何.

 他已有美好计划在我们每个人的生命中.

 感恩吧 :)

前天,薇走了,去了新加坡. 

Take care, dear :)

 大学要开学了, 很多人都去报到了.

  他应该也报到了.

 虽然和他不大熟, 不过希望他一切顺利.

 总在无意间想起你. 

你在那,一切还好吗? 还适应吗?

期待下次与你相遇虽然机会有些渺茫.

如果有机会相遇,希望你还记得我.

 希望我们能成为朋友

愿神祝福你 :)

 加油咯!

原来一切都只不过是空气

'Is this all I've been waiting for?

Is this all I've been searching for?
我在追寻什么东西?
原来一切都只不过是空气.
So, is this all I've been waiting for?'

我究竟在追寻什么?
转眼间,
二十年快过去 .
回头望去,
我做了什么呢?
每天都重复上演一样的戏码.
我的梦是什么?

人的思想真的很奇怪.
永远抓不透.
当你拥有,不懂得珍惜.
当你失去,懂得后悔的滋味.
人的要求永远都不满足.
永远都想超越现在.
想创造一个奇迹,一个不可能.

过去?
已变成历史,回不去.
'早知道' 只是一场幻想.
现在?
要把握, 不然下一秒就是一个回忆.
未来?
多么遥远和神秘的旅程.
带着期待去等待,希望能遇到自己想到达的目的地.

如果你我的生命剩下最后的24小时,
你我会如何去度过?
珍惜每分每秒.

Vanness Wu - Is This All

作曲：Ryan Tedder

填詞：崔惟楷

編曲：林於賢/Starr. C

監製：K.Y.B

一天一天　重覆上演　奔跑著卻沒有終點

付出一切　拼湊一片　我期待生活有所改變

可笑的他們　冷漠的臉　事不關己的語言

我拼了命　奮力向前　把明天都實現

我祈禱我能遇見　所謂完美的世界

Is this all I've been waiting for?

Is this all I've been searching for?

我在追尋甚麼東西　原來不過都只是空氣

So is this all I've been waiting for?

Waiting for , waiting for...

半開的眼　半醒的眠　思緒被困在夢裡面

我想看見　卻看不見　是否已經到了極限

我祈禱我能遇見　所謂完美的世界

Is this all I've been waiting for?

Is this all I've been searching for?

我在追尋甚麼東西　原來不過都只是空氣

So is this all I've been waiting for?

Waiting for , waiting for...

Is this all I've been waiting for?

Is this all I've been searching for?

我在追尋甚麼東西　原來不過都只是空氣

So is this all I've been waiting for?

Waiting for , waiting for...

Is this all I've been waiting for?

Is this all I've been searching for?

我在追尋甚麼東西　原來不過都只是空氣

So is this all I've been waiting for?

Waiting for , waiting for...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_t4FGuCvGmY&feature=related

Happy Valentine's day ^^

今天是情人节. :)
虽然单身, 但是我还在期待地等着神为我安排的那个人.
虽然我不懂他会是谁,可是我期待着他会是怎样的.. :)
哈哈 :)

最近开始重新练习回吉他.
以前总是害怕手指会脱皮或者什么的,
可是现在却感到兴奋当看见手指开始要脱皮了 :)
它好象在告诉我,这是起点而已,还要更努力. :)
在琴方面,我更加要加油了.
要开始退步了 :(

刚刚看见一些朋友的照片,
我发觉,
在打扮上还有某些方面上,
她们都在进步.
可是只有我还在原地踏步甚至还退步了. :(

自由自在,
不可懒惰了!!!
起来了!!!!
看着目标,看着梦想,
拼了!!
要记得,
神是你随时的帮助,是你的盾牌,
是你的避难所,你的依靠与力量,
是你的一切所有.
你不会是一个人而已,
还有神在你身边,无时无刻与你同在. :)



[ Fight for ur dream. With God ALL things is POSSIBLE!!! - z.u.z.z ]

CNY is coming ^.^

CNY's holiday is started..
Hehe..
But this year didn't went KL for reunion dinner..

A blink of eyes,
grandpa is passed away around 3 years ad.
Honestly, I miss him.
But, I think he should be very peaceful and enjoy now.
I think he is in the presence of God now.
Praise and worshiping our God.
I know,
one day,we'll meet again.

Anyway, treasure and appreciate what we have.
A humble and thankful heart is very precious.

One HOPE, One LOVE,
One GOD, One FAITH.

[Praise God no matter what situation that you having - z.u.z.z ]

Count the BLESSING of GOD ^^

Recently my sleeping time have tuned to 2 a.m ad :(
Homework is totally can overwhelmed me..
The real Form 6's life is started.
But,
I'm enjoy every moment with my classmates, buddies and frens. :)
6AK2 !!! Love it.
Thank you, Lord.
All are your blessing.
Thank you, Lord,
for everything that you've blessed me.
From the bottom of my heart,
Thank you, LORD !!!
I love you, LORD. :)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
最近我开始学习放手和交托给神.
很多东西我不舍得放.
口里说交托给神,
心却为自己做起最坏的打算或者想办法,用我自己的方法去解决.
我承认害怕失去.
害怕自己承受不了失去后的痛.
无形中, 我把很多东西都抓的很紧很紧.
说穿了, 我更害怕受伤尤其在感情方面.
可是,
当感情出现了问题,我逃得比谁都快.
我害怕受伤的那个痛.
我害怕我自己会连站起来的勇气都没有.
更不用说复原的能力了.
可是我发觉当我捉的越紧,
就越害怕失去.
很多负面的思想就会在我脑海里徘徊.
因为害怕,我忘了去看看四周,去感受身边的景物.
我还在学习中.
自由自在, 加油了.

ONE GOD, ONE LOVE,
ONE HOPE, ONE FAITH




[ With God ALL things is possible - z.u.z.z ]

Happy New Year

Happy New Year 2011 :)
A brand new start is begin.
A challenge year is start.
A great change should be start.
Never be the same AGAIN.

Lord Jesus,
I need a breakthrough this year.
Show me your way, Lord.

MOGLOM =)

Merry Christmas ^0^

Merry Christmas :)
Lord Jesus, thank you for your love.
Thank you for come to the earth.
I'm grateful to be your child.
Maybe I'm not the best but
Lord Jesus, I pray that a new year,
a new life , a new me. :)
A changing life. ^^
Watashi wa,-nushi iesu o aishi teru

Not what you want me to do for you
But is
What can I do for you. :)

This year is a special Christmas.
Although this year don't have much present.
But the greatest present for me this year is the time which spend with my family.
Mummy's cooked.
Although not the shark fin that kind of food,
but mummy's cooked always is the most delicious food :)
A blessed time with family.
How sweet the family that God have giving to me.
Thanks, God.
God, You're Awesome, A great God.

One LOVE
One HOPE
One FAITH
ONE GOD


[ A new me, keep in pray - Z.U.Z.Z ]

Appreciate What We Have

Recently quite hot in suicide topic.
For me,
I definitely disagree solving a problem by using this solution.
I felt that,
Using this way is not taking responsibility on their life
and quite selfish.
It not a mature thinking.
Just try to skip away from it.
They have bring the sadness to their family.
Even for some innocent people.
Parents used to take care of you with all their love,
maybe they have put some expectation on you.
You never know how sad they are.
How pain in their heart.

In hospital,
In this world,
How many ppls wish to live longer..
But they din have the chance to continue their life.
Life is the present from GOD.
Why we don't appreciate it ?
It is a very precious gift.
Maybe somebody will blame that,
why my life so tough?
BUT if you compare with the others,
we are blessed.
Thanks GOD for every breath we have.
GOD BLESS.

[A thankful heart is more than enough - Z.U.Z.Z]

Faith :)

Go or not go ?
I wished to go but it had crushed with my tuition.
So. now the thing that I can do is PRAY.
Just can PRAY.
Just leave it to GOD.

Walk by faith, not by sight.
Don't let the world steal your feelings,
HOPE, LOVE and FAITH.
The most greatest is LOVE :)

It's your decision.
How do you live,
happy or not.
blissful or not.
So,
God bless you :)


[ In my life, YOU always will be the only,
No one can replace YOU - Z.U.Z.Z ]

Sorry That I Loved You - Anthony Neely

词:倪安东/Skot suyimi(中译/陶晶莹)
曲:Skot Suyimi
LRC制作:IN-CORNER QQ:11505166

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while

So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight

And I'm So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffS40XbwUZI

23.11.2010

2010 skull life is end.
Which means that LOWER 6 life is end.
2011 is coming.
Upper 6 life is begin.
A great challenges is coming soon.

My holiday is full of tuition.
Some of my fren also work hard for earn more money.
Maree Ooi also having a blessed trip with her lovely hubby.
How sweet they are. :)
I really hope one day can receive their wedding invitation card.
Fren, stay blissful ya :)

Just now I saw a advertisment in internet.
- http://www.coos.org.sg/Assets/downloads/GoodNewsRallyFlyer_web.pdf
Pastor Philip and VanNess Wu is coming to SG.
To have a salvation meeting - SALVATION MESSAGE AND PRAYERS FOR THE SICK
on 26 & 27 November 2010.
Keep praying for this meeting although I'm not attend the meeting.
May God annoiting them and so on.
Glory is for God.

[ Hope, Love. Faith ]
[ but LOVE is the biggest ]

[ Surrender all to YOU, Lord. - Z.U.Z.Z ]

19.10.2010

如果你想说, 我愿意听.
不想说,我也不问.
因为,
如果说错话,
只会让我更恨,
更讨厌我自己.

习惯了伪装,
开始分不清,
哪个是真正的自己.

话少,这不是我.
话多,容易得罪人.
最亲的人,
都不了解自己.
何况是别人.

我不懂得社交.
我不懂得沟通.
我不懂得用话来讨好人.
说难听点,
说话没经大脑.
这就是我.

我无心的话,
变成了无心的伤害.
也成了我的内疚.
内疚一步一步的前进.
内疚没有解药.
唯一的解药,
应该就是我自己.
释放就是唯一的药方.

Disappointed to myself

Today is the 1st day of final exam.
Am2..
I'm not sure will ' da bao' or not..
Just let it be.

So, now need to memorize PP1 for tmr.
Too many bab need to cover.
Honestly,
I don't know how to start it.

Quite disappointed to myself.
Freaking hate this type of feeling.
This feeling come to attack me again.
I don't know how to overcome it.
Just felt like shame to face other.
Hate it.

Sometimes isn't live like a dumb will better?
At least can't 'dak zui' others.
I'm just like a idiot.
I don't know how to communicate with others.
I don't know how I share my thinking with you'll.
I always makes misunderstanding my meaning.
I just like a stupid.
I don't know how to build a relationships with other.
I don't know how to talk.
I don't know how to show my care to other.

More I've talk, more mistake I've make.
No ppl understanding.
Just be a annoying person.
Isn't alone is better?
At the end,
I'm alone.

Sometimes after I said something,
actually I not mention anything.
But, I've said in incorrect ways.
I don't have speaking skill.
I don't know how to describe my opinion.
That why, I always hurt other,
but sometimes I didn't realise it.
I really not willing to hurt other.
This what we call stupid. Idiot.

Is possible, have a person understand me?
I think no.
Except God.
The only one who know me well.

How I change?
Isn't the only solution-
Don't talk.
or talk by using brain.

Exam is start

Today just finished Muet - Speaking component.
Just felt like ok.
Not very good but also not very very bad.
2nd chance will on next year.

Exam will start coming Monday.
haven't prepare.
haiz~ Final exam..
challenge again.

Gambatek la, frenz :)
God bless.
All the best :)


[ One GOD ]
[ One HOPE ]
[ One LOVE ]
[ One FAITH ]


[ waiting - Z.U.Z.Z ]

飞轮海 - 心疼你的心疼

总是在夜深人静想一个人
你留给我的回忆 映着月光更深刻
如果说后悔可以杀一个人
我已经为你死掉 多少次了呢

你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得

心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生

时间是一道不能反转的门
那时的年少轻狂 如今想来多残忍
只不过这个世上没有一本
能够教我们如何 相爱的手册

你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得

心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生

再也不会让你受伤了
我已完全明白爱能教人多心疼
这次换我等 换我为你牺牲
让我守护着你 跟我一起走过时间的河

心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生

[ 等待 ]