如果你想说, 我愿意听.
不想说,我也不问.
因为,
如果说错话,
只会让我更恨,
更讨厌我自己.
习惯了伪装,
开始分不清,
哪个是真正的自己.
话少,这不是我.
话多,容易得罪人.
最亲的人,
都不了解自己.
何况是别人.
我不懂得社交.
我不懂得沟通.
我不懂得用话来讨好人.
说难听点,
说话没经大脑.
这就是我.
我无心的话,
变成了无心的伤害.
也成了我的内疚.
内疚一步一步的前进.
内疚没有解药.
唯一的解药,
应该就是我自己.
释放就是唯一的药方.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Disappointed to myself
Today is the 1st day of final exam.
Am2..
I'm not sure will ' da bao' or not..
Just let it be.
So, now need to memorize PP1 for tmr.
Too many bab need to cover.
Honestly,
I don't know how to start it.
Quite disappointed to myself.
Freaking hate this type of feeling.
This feeling come to attack me again.
I don't know how to overcome it.
Just felt like shame to face other.
Hate it.
Sometimes isn't live like a dumb will better?
At least can't 'dak zui' others.
I'm just like a idiot.
I don't know how to communicate with others.
I don't know how I share my thinking with you'll.
I always makes misunderstanding my meaning.
I just like a stupid.
I don't know how to build a relationships with other.
I don't know how to talk.
I don't know how to show my care to other.
More I've talk, more mistake I've make.
No ppl understanding.
Just be a annoying person.
Isn't alone is better?
At the end,
I'm alone.
Sometimes after I said something,
actually I not mention anything.
But, I've said in incorrect ways.
I don't have speaking skill.
I don't know how to describe my opinion.
That why, I always hurt other,
but sometimes I didn't realise it.
I really not willing to hurt other.
This what we call stupid. Idiot.
Is possible, have a person understand me?
I think no.
Except God.
The only one who know me well.
How I change?
Isn't the only solution-
Don't talk.
or talk by using brain.
Am2..
I'm not sure will ' da bao' or not..
Just let it be.
So, now need to memorize PP1 for tmr.
Too many bab need to cover.
Honestly,
I don't know how to start it.
Quite disappointed to myself.
Freaking hate this type of feeling.
This feeling come to attack me again.
I don't know how to overcome it.
Just felt like shame to face other.
Hate it.
Sometimes isn't live like a dumb will better?
At least can't 'dak zui' others.
I'm just like a idiot.
I don't know how to communicate with others.
I don't know how I share my thinking with you'll.
I always makes misunderstanding my meaning.
I just like a stupid.
I don't know how to build a relationships with other.
I don't know how to talk.
I don't know how to show my care to other.
More I've talk, more mistake I've make.
No ppl understanding.
Just be a annoying person.
Isn't alone is better?
At the end,
I'm alone.
Sometimes after I said something,
actually I not mention anything.
But, I've said in incorrect ways.
I don't have speaking skill.
I don't know how to describe my opinion.
That why, I always hurt other,
but sometimes I didn't realise it.
I really not willing to hurt other.
This what we call stupid. Idiot.
Is possible, have a person understand me?
I think no.
Except God.
The only one who know me well.
How I change?
Isn't the only solution-
Don't talk.
or talk by using brain.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Exam is start
Today just finished Muet - Speaking component.
Just felt like ok.
Not very good but also not very very bad.
2nd chance will on next year.
Exam will start coming Monday.
haven't prepare.
haiz~ Final exam..
challenge again.
Gambatek la, frenz :)
God bless.
All the best :)
[ One GOD ]
[ One HOPE ]
[ One LOVE ]
[ One FAITH ]
[ waiting - Z.U.Z.Z ]
Just felt like ok.
Not very good but also not very very bad.
2nd chance will on next year.
Exam will start coming Monday.
haven't prepare.
haiz~ Final exam..
challenge again.
Gambatek la, frenz :)
God bless.
All the best :)
[ One GOD ]
[ One HOPE ]
[ One LOVE ]
[ One FAITH ]
[ waiting - Z.U.Z.Z ]
Friday, October 1, 2010
飞轮海 - 心疼你的心疼
总是在夜深人静想一个人
你留给我的回忆 映着月光更深刻
如果说后悔可以杀一个人
我已经为你死掉 多少次了呢
你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
时间是一道不能反转的门
那时的年少轻狂 如今想来多残忍
只不过这个世上没有一本
能够教我们如何 相爱的手册
你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
再也不会让你受伤了
我已完全明白爱能教人多心疼
这次换我等 换我为你牺牲
让我守护着你 跟我一起走过时间的河
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
[ 等待 ]
你留给我的回忆 映着月光更深刻
如果说后悔可以杀一个人
我已经为你死掉 多少次了呢
你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
时间是一道不能反转的门
那时的年少轻狂 如今想来多残忍
只不过这个世上没有一本
能够教我们如何 相爱的手册
你的泪痕 你默默忍耐过的寒冷
我现在才懂得
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
再也不会让你受伤了
我已完全明白爱能教人多心疼
这次换我等 换我为你牺牲
让我守护着你 跟我一起走过时间的河
心疼你的心疼 想紧紧把你抱着
去弥补从前所有不完整
让我让你快乐 为你的微笑负责
承诺过的未来还在等
等我们的爱重生
[ 等待 ]
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