复杂

以前总觉得待在灰色地带就好.
不前又不后,不左又不右,
的地方.
中间就好.

直到有一位牧师说,
不要好象圣经所说,
不冷又不热.
那样,
神会将他吐出来.
他宁可我们只是冷或热. (启示录)
很震撼我的心的一句话.
带给我很多的感想.

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有些事情过去了,
是时候把它卸下了.
背地太多,
辛苦的还是自己.
'凡劳苦担重担的人,
到我这里来,
必得安息.'

对于他,我就算说一万次对不起,
他也看不到,也不会知道.
也与事无补.
内疚.
自责. 又能怎样?
或许有一天见到他,
我可能转身就走.
就像那天,
静静的离开.
也许他也不记得有这个人了.
应该吧..


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中六..
它让我第一次做功课做到凌晨四点.
不过,
感谢神,
力量从他而来.
不然,我也不懂怎样去熬过隔天的课.
开始要适应读书的生活.
要开始背书.温习.
开始觉得时间不够我用了.
很多节目都要放下了.
差不多每天都要补习到九点半.
回到家快十点了.
现在我的睡觉时间都快要改去凌晨1点过后了.
主,就让我为你而做吧.
不要让我停下来想有的没的,不可能发生的事.
专著在学业上吧.
其他的,有空再说.

自由自在,加油.

22-05-2010

Skull has reopen.
So, my Form 6 life is begin.
Quite stress. Bcause all the teacher not same as b4.
Straighter than b4 and more punctual.
lol :)
Furthermore, the subject harder than b4.
Especially I didn't have any basic on it.
So, need work hard than other.
But, Praise God for all those things and wat has HIS prepared for me.

Today, my best fren has ask me something.
Dear, it's not some very private things la. haha~
Maybe you'll think tat I'm not mature.
Maybe I'm.
Actually I dislike a complicated love.
I dun wan a love which consist of many misunderstanding.
I also dun know why.
Just like wat had been act in 'Next stop, happiness'.
In the beginning, they are lack of trust and hurt each other.
but,
at the end, they are having a happy ending la. :)

So, focus in study 1st.
hehe~

Contradiction feeling

Just back from song practise .
Everyone need to share a few word about impression tat bro.H.T had been given to us last week.
For me,
he is a talent singer and humbly servant.
He is pro, work hard and failing love in music.
but, I feel so sorry to him.
On the saturday service.

But,
is apology useful?
'Sorry' can't reparation anything.
That meeting had been topple by me.
What can I say?
I think I'll be the worst keyboardist tat he never seen before.

A bit shame, pai seh when facing him.
Not because of his straight but
is can't present something tat he want.
Can't fulfil his request.

Maybe you say tat do it for God not for him.
but,
tat service I also can't accept,
Will God accept ? I dun know.
But Thanks God,
through the prayer,
God has set me free.
He has bring me overcome tat feeling, sadness.
If not, I don't know wat will happen on me.
Tat why I say,
God, pls do not let go ur hand.
I can't live without you.
All the problem, I just can tell you.
I'm a bit weak sharing my problem with other ppl although she is one of my best fren.
I don't know how to describe it.
But,
in my heart I can. Weird?
I also dun know why.
Maybe because of I'm the only child in my family.
From the early age has been used to. :)
Anyway,
Keep in pray. Godbless.
Good night.

ONE LOVE, ONE HOPE, ONE FAITH.


~Grace~

Random Writing

When I heard my best fren told me wat is happened between her boyfren and her,
some of joke, sweet memory and how they overcome their problem or
quarrel and so on~
I can feel tat, they are love each other.
They are more sweeter than before.
Although now they are just 18.
In the future, we don't know what will going on..
So, treasure on it, my fren.

Sometimes, I'll think how about me? haha!!
(Single-life now)

My fren always scolded me,
Why you self-abased?
I also don't know why.
When I look to my eye,
is tat the problem?
Maybe~

If I say I don't care about it,
I'm telling a lie.

So, how about me?
I don't know. Just surrender all to HIM.
For someone,maybe it just like a game.
But for me, it is a serious thing.
Anyway, PRAY 1st. haha~
So,
focus in study 1st. haha~~~

God, thanks for everything.
God, pls do not let go of my hand.
Hold fast to my hand.
Pls do not let go.
~Love you~

I believe in you -- 陳孟奇

我要举起双手 献上我所有
你给我力量 让我向前走
纵然面对太多的困难
你依然在我的身旁
我相信 我全然的相信

I believe in you
不会再有任何的疑惑保留
I believe in you
不要放开我的手
I believe in you
我的眼泪不再因悲伤而流
主我相信
Cause I believe in you

主我们愿全心相信你真理
真爱的力量 使我有勇气
纵然面对太多的困难
你依然在我的身旁
我相信 我全然的相信

I believe in you
不会再有任何的疑惑保留
I believe in you
不要放开我的手
I believe in you
我的眼泪不再因悲伤而流
主我相信
Cause I believe in you

I believe in you
我要举起双手 献上我所有
主我相信
Cause I believe in you

I believe in you
我的眼泪不再因悲伤而流
Yes I believe in you~